Hi, teaK!

He knows that I have used this forum often for seeking help. I had often told him that it has been really helpful to me and I had encouraged him in the past to share his mind out here so that people reading can help him out. But since we are not in contact for some days now so I don’t know about him currently or if he is reading this thread.

No matter what, I have always been helped here and I have returned as a healthier person than I was before- whether the forum showed me my mistakes or my fears and insecurities, it was helpful at all times. And I feel more at ease seeking help here than my peers who can be a bit biased to me so they only speak good about me. I want honest answers which I receive here. I am not insecure sharing my mind even he is reading the thread. I think I spent enough time with him for him to know what I think of him. If you would have noticed, I just want to correct myself and grow healthier. When it comes to internal growth, only we can fix ourselves and that is what I am focused on.

I have come to trust you teaK as much as I trust Anita. She has guided me like a personal friend each time I was failing to hold myself. As she pointed out, I have some insecurities which need to be resolved slowly so that I can share my mind with people so that I have a healthy relationship with friends and not be too dependent on one person, my partner for my emotional needs. I have initiated a step in this sphere. I talked to my closest friend, told her that I am facing issues talking to her despite the fact that she will pick my calls at any point of time and expects nothing in return. She was understanding and asked me to have baby steps and just ping her about my days or each time I want to say something to someone, instead of keeping it in, just write it in the memo app of my phone and send it to her whenever I feel confident to share. Don’t know if it will work but I am willing to try.