Dear sossi:

You shared that when you were a child and a young woman, you were not jealous of anyone, but now you are jealous: “Am I jealous of other people now? SURE! I wish I had money, job security, I wish I had someone who loved me, I wish I had autonomy and that people respected me”-

– I wish those things for you too.

“I wish that I could go out and not feel like people are constantly out to get me”- I understand that your workplace is very competitive and that co-workers may be bulling you, being unfair to you. I think that it is unlikely that people everywhere “are constantly out to get (you)”.

“Even walking on the street sometimes people will start laughing as I approach them so that I go to look in the mirror what is wrong…there is never anything there. I must have a funny looking expression or something”- Question #1: do you mean that when you walk on the street, stranger make fun at you (sometimes, often.. or always)?

“in a foreign country I feel that I am targeted a lot because women here are very jealous and possessive… no guy has ever approached me here to ask me out….only my ex.. the only one… he was the only guy to notice me”- Question #2: you say that you do not have money, or job security, and that men do not notice you- so what are women jealous of you for?

“What if I am just too messed up for anyone to like me and stay?”-Question #3: how are you “too messed up”?

I am trying to understand, this is why  I am asking you questions.

anita