Dear sossi:

“I wonder if I am addicted to the excitement”- I think so, I noticed it earlier. You shared that you don’t want to take psychiatric medication (anti-depressants, and/ or mood regulators) because such medication make you feel numb/ no excitement at all, but I think that the correct prescription by a competent psychiatrist, will help you a lot with your overthinking, much of it, like you stated in your recent post, is paranoid thinking (“I think I do suffer from paranoia quite a bit”).

anita