Thank you again all of you. Wind your words resonated with me so deeply.  I feel stronger everyday and understand my thoughts, feelings and beliefs about the house come from a deeper place. A holding on place, fear of dying place, a respect for my aunt and for the original owner who built the place in 1850. I understand I have nothing really in this life and the place has kept me as I desired. Time to move through time. Again, appreciate your kindness. I will keep you posted.