Dear anita,

sorry, I have been feeling kind of grumpy lately. Today I am also feeling irritated… One client always starts small talk while waiting. He always stands close to the spot where I have to stand. And I politely replied to him in short answers. Today some other clients made fun of him for flirting with the workers… I am feeling annoyed and embarrassed! Thankfully I will not have to be there for two weeks after Friday!!!!!!

But overall, I like being nice to people, but it always makes me feel insecure, asking myself if I was rude or too friendly or fake. I guess this overthinking is what makes it stressful.

So I should work more on building the life that I want to live so I can soon move away and closer to nature. I long fo a place to call home and more connections to people and to nature.

I need to work harder! Work everyday on my drawings and to finish my studies and to build a career…

Thank you for always reading my posts.