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Dear Murtaza:
“In your recent reply you sounded excited, but in this reply you sounded bit disappointed if I may say (or less excited), did you expect me to answer something specifically?”- no, I was very satisfied with your first post today. The less-excited feeling that you accurately perceived (you are very good at it!) was probably about me thinking that you submitted your first (very satisfactory) post before you watched the Youtube video, and I was worried that after you watch it, you will no longer like me, because of where I was born.. or for some other reason.
“It’s a mystery to me why you love me the way you do, I ask ‘why me?’ ‘From the all people she talk to, she must seen better'”- it is a mystery: I didn’t plan it, it just happened. In my interactions with members, I mostly operate from the intellect, not from the heart. Suddenly, in communicating with you (it appeared sudden but it was not, I am guessing).. something happened. I cannot explain it using intellect/ words. It is unexplainable. But it is trustworthy to stay, to not disappear.
I will look up the words to the song and send you another post with the words, later. I may take a walk next. Later I plan to go to the taproom.. it may be tomorrow morning (it is after 2 pm now) before I post to you again. It’s after midnight your time. I hope you have a good night!
anita