Hi Linarra,

I’m so glad you enjoyed the meditation.

Here are two more by Mimi Page-

Clarity: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DIgqED1o16M

Breathe: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DxtL–xOq_U

Here’s a quote I came upon recently: “If you’re unsure of your purpose in this life, look to your wounds. Where we are called to serve is where we ourselves have been impoverished.” ~Mira Hadlow

I love the book, Man’s Search for Meaning (by holocaust survivor, Viktor Frankl). It explores finding meaning in the mess. I  find it helpful for depression and trauma too.

Now that you’re reconnecting with your inner child and said things to her, what are some things she’d like to say to you? Try the reverse of what you did.

What childhood beliefs did you cultivate because of your trauma? What triggers you to feel these ways? When was a last time you had a trauma response i.e. Saying “I’m fine” when you’re not or avoiding conflict etc. What triggered that trauma response? Can you connect it back to your childhood beliefs?

Then strengthen the inner adult. Challenge those childhood beliefs. If you were told to stay small and quiet and weak and disempowered, say “I’m allowed to take up space.”

It seems like your relationships don’t allow you to take up space fully. You struggle to share your pain in them or get meaningful responses. (Again here and that facebook group as well as any support group or therapist would help that). What if you tried to put together these thoughts you share here and express it to a close friend or family member you trust? What if you tried to be a little vulnerable and let someone in? Maybe not the whole way but just to let them know how you’re feeling. That way you feel less alone.

I was depressed as a child too. I had a lot of trauma from that time period as well. Your inner child listens to you. She knows you are saving her. 🙂 And you can and will save yourself.

I’m glad you’re seeing how far you’ve come. Give yourself some credit. You deserve it. Not many could be so strong.

You deserve to know how wonderful you are. I can already see by your writing you’re thoughtful, intelligent, resilient, empathetic and kind. You are self advocating in a great way already.

Journal your thoughts to these points. Take your time. Get to know yourself again. Your inner child is someone you will feel triggered time and time again due to trauma. that is normal for the healing process. The point of this is to understand your triggers and healthily respond with self-compassion.

Self-compassion can be hard to muster when you’ve faced neglect. That’s why communicating with your inner child is so important.

Hope that helps!

Sarah