Dear Murtaza:

Sorry you lost your reply. I am glad to read your post, I was sad earlier that you didn’t post at the regular time, quite sad, really. I noticed now because I feel better that you posted.

“you are alone, by alone I mean mentally“- very much my experience although I’ve been quite intoxicated, literally and figuratively, at the taproom, enjoying social interactions with multiple people.. in the last few years- the togetherness feeling, aided by red wine, is euphoric.

“I wanna ask you, why this “norime” do such thing? I’m asking your opinion“- normies protect abusive parents because normies support those in power, and parents are always in power over their young children.

Normies support power over justice (this is why the world is unfair and why…  “deserves got nothing to do with it”)

Regarding my line yesterday: “Imagine a person coming to you, offering to be with you willingly, generously”- I felt badly about having written it to you, yesterday after I posted, because I remembered that you said it is impossible for you to have this experience.  I felt bad for suggesting that you imagine something that is not possible for you.

“I can imagine this, but I can’t believe it, being alone for so long I developed this believe, sad“- you said earlier that it is impossible for you.

“There isn’t anything good in this world is it? Lol“- and yet it is the only place (that I know) where life exists. Sadly, life and suffering goes hand in hand.

“Unforgiven is one of my favorite western movies..” – I watched Unforgiven dozens of times, it is definitely one of the top few favorite movies of all times, for me (and for you, we have this in common, how exciting!)

Until tomorrow, I hope you sleep well.

anita