Dear TeaK,

Thank you once again for ur reply.

“As for your teeth, you can inquire how long the teeth straightening process will last, i.e. how long you would have to wear braces. Also, if you’d be able to do it, considering your swallowing problem. Braces wouldn’t be a physical obstacle, people can eat normally with them as far as I know, but maybe psychologically for you it may be a problem.“

= Yes, after the lockdown in my city has been lifted… i’ll inquire how long the process will last…. Because as you’ve said, it could cause a psychology problem for me.

There’s another thing i wanna share about (idk if this is also considered as overthinking).
So basically 4 years ago, before i went to uni my parents told me to attend uni in that “city” … only to study and immediately go back to my hometown to help my family’s business… And because they said it that way… i dont take my uni seriously… like i never get good grades… although fortunately i never failed any module… I also took an easy major in my uni…

When one of my friends in uni asked me, “what’s ur plan after graduating”… i said “immediately go back to help my family’s business” and he said “ahh how lucky you are”…. This was asked when i was in my diploma before taking my degree… My uni is a business university… because i felt lucky i took the easiest major which is “business management”… i should’ve took accountancy that time… as i’m better at numbers…

After graduating… i immediately go back to help my family’s business…. And after a year (right now) i feel lost… like i keep complaining how my city was boring… and i dont think i’m a person who’s good at giving commands (if i continue the business that must mean i have to be good at giving commands), and i dont really like my family’s type of business, also my role right now isnt important in helping them actually.

Once i complained to my parents why is my life like this after graduating? As i see many of my friends are busy finding jobs and meeting new people and not stuck in a single place like me…

My parents said i should be lucky that i dont have to work hard like other people do… they say working is hard.. especially if you work with others (not independently).
In my head is that i’m still young and i’m keen to explore life.. i wanna enjoy my youth… i even thought of taking masters abroad only to enjoy my youth… but right now it’s lockdown in my city and i dont wanna take online classes for my masters as it’s a waste because i’ll only stay at home, and i cant predict when can i study abroad…
But i’m also lazy to study again, i’m confused now.
And i also want to try going to the gym and wear braces…

Is it normal for a 22 year old to think like this? Am i complaining too much on life?
I bet any parents would get tired to have a child like me 😅