PAST

Regrets. What I failed, I failed in my behavior.

You suffered. I remember what you sacrificed. And why you are here in this flat/city.

You waited so much. I didn’t move one finger about marriage (from 2015 !)

It was a lot of time suffering. I left you terribly alone in this city you first didn’t know.

My behavior was bad in the relationship and hurted so much.

You took everything on yourself, forgot yourself. All that even didn’t realize how you suffered because I was too deep in my problem and extremely egocentrist.

It partly took you to the condition you (had?).

I hurted you so much. I sincerely regret and apologize. It was important for me and for you I think to tell you in person.

But I thank you so much. I am so grateful from you. You did the best to make me fully aware and provoked a huge wake-up.
I am so thankful to you for that.

The break-up was necessary. Without, I would stay the same and hurt you even much more.

I have now full conscience and realized what you sacrified and suffered.

I know now where I am going.

Thanks to you, I woke up awareness of all this.

PRESENT.

I set off, changed and undertook. It was a deep electrochoc.

I couldn’t stand my life anymore. I wanted to grow.

Thanks to you and what I did was for me first.

Today I feel not another but changed into a better person. And it’s partly thanks to you.

I made peace with my OLD ME and the past.

I changed with the help of friends, the therapist that I continue to see.

I changed my behavior, relation and care with others.

I am now ready to give and not only receive.

I wasn’t ready at all for a relationship. I realize it now.

I found a job I like.

I was very active sending many resumes and got several interviews.

I like the hotel industry. It gives many opportunities and evolutions after.And opportunities to move.

For example, the manager of one french hotel in Kyiv is french.

I also continue in parallel projects for freelancing, blogging..

I continue to learn russian.

FUTURE.

I am now happy grown up and have a clear direction where I want to go.

I have my plans, my projects.

I am ready to commit forward.

I am also going to find a tiny studio to stay in Paris.

I know what I want. I want to have a serious relationship. At my age it’s time to think about marriage. And I’ll want to start a family. I will be of course so happy if you give me a new chance.

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I know you live a difficult time and still want to support and help you.

Asking how she is, worry and care about her. Support, attentive.

Entertain her, make her smile, make her feel better, and remind her of good memories.

Help her, hold the door.

I am giving you time and space. I know you live difficult times. But I am here for you. I respect your choice but know I’ll be there.

• This reply was modified 3 years, 4 months ago by damien.