*continuation from the previous post*

After another brainstorming with myself, I realized that i’m a person who needs to feel accomplishment everyday to convince myself that i’m capable….

But how can i do that, it’s not like there’s something to achieve everyday right?

Well i can try learning languages (like chinese), but sometimes i feel lazy…. How do i get rid of this? I think it’s due to a habit of mine for feeling lazy all this time that makes it hard to get rid of… I’m a person who tends to get motivated in the beginning but will lose interest along the way…

I even have to force myself everyday to do the exercises… it’s really hard to take over that laziness….

I know that u have said that i have to convince myself that i’m strong and capable, but i really dont know what to do now… I never knew life after graduating will be this stressful…. I keep overthinking things and i havent make a move for myself…

There’s so much pressure being a guy, i need to be capable and smart…. Otherwise nobody wants to be my partner, and it’ll lead into me not creating my own family which equals to failure in life….

Also to be attractive i have to be at least “good looking”, life standards are so high it’s so unbearable 🙂

I remember when someone ask me, “what do you do now after graduating”?

”I’m helping my parents business”

”Ahh i see”

That’s it, the topic didnt continue after that… It’s like they see me as nothing special

Most guys have ambitions in their life, but i dont really have one…. I think it’s due to me never faces and challenges in my life…

With my introvert personality, i dont really like communicating with people…. Like how can i cope with working life if i’m like this, it’s already a dead end for me 🥲

I’m like a lost kid in the middle of a large crowd, where everybody walks because they know their destination and i’m just standing there watching them move…. Why do other people are able to know what they want but i can’t?