Hi Carly

I noticed that you mention you were ‘under the influence’, does that mean it was not your responsibility? Was it the fault of the substance? If we don’t take responsibility, then we are lying to ourselves and it will therefore go around and around in our heads until we can own up to what really went on for us, perhaps we wanted to do what we did, perhaps it was fun, perhaps because something’s missing in your present relationship? Your boyfriend is not responsible for constantly reassuring you. Looking at your motives may be a help. I hope this is helpful – it’s an honest reflection from me. I wish you the best.
Audette