Dear Teak and Anita,

i am feeling anxious and restless ..i want to just share here .i have no idea if i m making the right decision.

i talked to my family and told them i want to marry  bcz i found the one ,as they were keep delaying in the name of investigation… this news went to my eldest sis and she contacted me and accusing me of blackmailing ,disturbing and torturing my family member .its about 2 days before .and she was so angry at me that she was saying i m a child ,emotional,i dont know about people etc..i dint take things so seriously ..she said i dont care for my family (all emotional stuff etc and that how much they sacrificed for me and that i dont care about them)

after some minutes she texted my husband on facebook (btw they dint know each other and nor they were friends in FB) she asked him to for sake of god ,he shouldnt be forcing me for marriage bcz i m torturing and blackmailing them and she put me down on those messages  by saying i m very inconsistant (may be because i refused to a guy which they wanted me too) that how much she regrets to send me abroad for studies and sacrificing alot  and how immature childish i m..and that she is so fed up of my childish behaviour and all ,how i made them emotional that i will study medicine  and i couldnt become one atleast i could do physiotherapy but dint do that too ..how she thinks i never achieved anything here .i got all luxury from her ..my husband texted back that” she should be proud that i made it alone till here” ..she said why should she be proud of me as all i didnt even become physiotherapist if not doctor etc

she kept writing but there was nt single positive word from her…i couldnt stop my tears i couldnt sleep all night bcz these words  were so hurtful .i kept weeping all night …and than in the morning i wrote  her huge text that how ur words made me feel ,how much i was hurted to know ,how she thinks ,feel and represent me infront of anyone …

btw its very easy to become a physiotherapist  here .that was no big deal but i dint want to be …

now i talk to my sis she said i should complete my degree than i should talk to her because she is afraid of her husband critism ..his husband is very toxic person and unfortunetly my sis is becoming one too ..and that she is afraid that ppl ll laugh at her that she sent her sis for studies and she got married there .

PS:

i dint want to talk to my family and invite this drama but my husband’s mom wanted to talk to my family and so my husband wants to fullfill his mom wish of celebrating our marriage …

and i talked to family and now so much disturbed..

i am thinking to talk to my husband to wait 1_1.5 years till i complete my studies and talk to them again …

because they really spent money on me …i dont know …i should pay them back and do wait..

i feel like i dragged my husband into this all mess..and i feel sorry for him…

looking some understanding .

i have talked ,fought but no one is supporting me at home  and i m feeling drained out of sudden …