Anita,

Yes it has been too long. How are you?  I hope you enjoyed Easter.   I had the children from 10-6 and we went to the movies,  the store for a toy because they received money for Easter and made breakfast to dinner.  Also decorated eggs.

Work has been extremely busy and I am working between 9 and 10 hours a day.

I set up a counseling session for the kids next Tuesday.  The kids came over on Easter at 10am and were talking about a huge fight between my ex and his girlfriend.

Apparently my daughter Ella told her dad she did not like Amy (girlfriend) and that Amy was mean to her. Also the kids told me that my ex pushed her towards the bedroom because she was in trouble and not behaving. ( A 5 out of 10 push)

I have attempted to discuss this with my ex.  Mostly the toxic situation in their home and my worry for the kids, especially Ella. He would not meet in person but we spoke on the phone and he projected everything as my fault. He denied ever pushing Ella.  He stated I was a “bitch” and all Amy ever tried to do was co parent and assist him and I working together and I ruined it.

He attacked me in every direction from “what this is your 3rd or 4th boyfriend?” to “Ella runs your house. You cry all the time and you do not give Aiden enough attention.”

The rest of the conversation continued to go south and I disconnected the line.  Mistake on my part.  I’m doing the right things and feel like I am verbally trashed in person.  While I am very aware of his behaviors this is making a big impact on me.

He says the kids come over to his house all the time and say things about me.  I feel like I am going to go into the counselor’s office and have no voice and be run over.  I do not think I am going to say much at all except I am worried about their well being as of the last 6 months. I have noticed changes.

I am just struggling. My relationship with Jason is good I’m just starting to think he is a bit weird but then maybe I am too. We all have our faults and he is a good boyfriend.

Lindsey