Anita,

I spoke with Jason a few minutes ago on the phone. I was just talking about my general anxiety and he was talking about work things.  So then he stated is there something else that’s bothering you? And I was like well yes but I think it’s a very akward thing for me to bring up because I know the answer and I proceeded to tell him what we spoke about with his ex girlfriend. He said he knew that was going to come up again because of my facial expression when we were talking.

I mean I said how I felt, I’m happy with things right now.  No one knows the outcome or what will happen. I’m not ready to think about anything more serious. He agreed I just wish I had more reassurance about it. I feel very uncomfortable about bringing it up. In fact I feel worse now.  I feel he thinks I am trying to push things or my frame of mind is disturbing or he’s like oh boy here’s something I have to deal with again with these women.

I just want to end things honestly.  I feel that I cannot and will not put myself in any type of situation like this where I would basically get my heard broken.   I am not doing well with this at all. I really just wanted to break up with him and be done with it. I’m serious.  I can’t talk with him anymore about this. It will just make things worse

Lindsey