Hi Anita, thanks so much for your reply. Just like others in the thread, I just have this insecure and threatened feeling when I’m with my partner and there’s another attractive girl in the room, on the tv screen, etc., even if I wouldn’t mind that kind of thing in private and enjoy watching, like a hip hop music video. My partner does not make me feel inadequate and Im open with these feelsing with him,  It feels really unhealthy I do this, and I feel so pathetic feeling this way over other women living their best life and looking good. As valors posted i will be deep diving into where these come from. I’ve dealt with self esteem for most of my life and I know a lot of women do as well and it’s baffling how much it can take over our lives. I recently came to the realization most of these women have dealt with self-esteem issues in their past too, and they’ve put a lot of effort into looking this good from the same feelings I have. I guess it’s only in relation to my partner these feelings come out…

thanks again for listening to my rant. I want to reclaim myself.