My parents didn’t know about it and I didn’t tell my family until I was 23 years old.  I will be discussing this with a therapist as well. When I did open up and say something I believe there was some shock. We haven’t spoke much about it since then. Although I have brought it up on occasion when I was drunk. It’s definitely something I need to talk about as I feel the hurt and pain a lot right now given my situation.

I also wonder a lot what my wife is up to. I want to text her but I know that’s not a good idea at the moment. When I’m down on myself I wonder if she’s met someone else although given how things happened and what she has going on in her life I don’t think she is.  I know that’s an insecurity on my end but it still crosses my mind from time to time.  Anyhow, I pretty depressed and down these past few days. Thanks for listening.