Both replies have been so so helpful for me. Thank you. I also wanted to mention that I feel a lot of built up guilt for so many reasons that are not healthy. I base a lot of my happiness on the happiness of others, especially my immediate family. If they are unhappy I blame myself or maybe I don’t blame myself but I always really really put it on myself to do something about it. I ask what I can do to help them feel better and I think all of that pressure is making me crack. it is just so hard to stop this cycle and I am not really sure how to stop it because it does come from a good place of wanting to help and wanting to see them thrive and be happy.