Hi Tee

You feel guilty for not being honest with her, for stringing her along while you don’t really love her the way she loves you?

– You’re right. 

If you feel like it’s more of an attachment, it probably means that you feel she is meeting some of your needs, but there is still something missing… Would you like to answer – what do you feel is missing?

– Good Question there.

But what I see is that guilt is present, and self-hatred is present (I really hate myself). Also, it seems that you don’t really know yourself that well (I don’t understand myself nor who to love.) In order to understand yourself better, you would need to know what your needs are, what your values are, your goals and dreams…

– This is very true. I am planning to have a self assessment with a experienced clinical psychologist to dive into my inner child and see what is missing. 

The problem is, if you have been living a life of conforming to other people’s expectations, and feeling unworthy and unlovable the way you are…. then you’d need to learn how to love and value yourself first. This would be task No1: to heal those core wounds

– Very true. You seem to have a very good in dept level of understanding one’s cognition. We can have some private conversation if you dont mind 🙂 perhaps shed some light on my situation. Good to have someone to talk to. Just an idea, please ignore if you are not comfortable 🙂

I don’t know how open your current girlfriend is to you digging deeper into yourself? To going on a self-discovery quest, so to speak? Would she support you in that, or she wouldn’t understand?

– I can’t really tell but i believe she will be supportive.