Dear Ik09:

A small sample from the writings of a talented writer:

May 9, 2018: “I always have had the fear of being left alone all my life… I was a smart girl, but when it comes to (guy 1) I have been really dense!!!… I have decided not to date or love again till I am sure I love myself enough to not be afraid of being alone”.

May 25 2018: “I am at a stage in life where everything seems nonsensical and without a purpose. I aced through school and college, and then I got tired of everything. The only thing that kept me working for the future was the concept of love”.

Dec 18, 2018: “I was on a vacation with my sister and two of her friends. One of them (guy 2), I was attracted to him… One day, when drunk, he texted me that he had a crush on me… There was an undeniable connection… I have met many men in my life, even my ex, but this level of compatibility was never present with any of them… But this man… I understand him like I am seeing myself in the mirror”.

Dec 23, 2018: “Sometimes in loving people, we put them before us. I have done that a lot in my life and it never worked in a positive direction for me… For a long time I was upset: why people don’t love me as much as I love them. Now I have realised that some people aren’t capable of expressing, while some wouldn’t love you no matter what you do for them”.

April 23, 2020: “I think it was my obsession to have a guy in my life who truly loved me…  a girl’s fantasy. When drunk, you (guy 2) used to say a lot of things that girls want to hear, and I felt that this was it, the love I was hoping to enjoy and live in this
lifetime”.

April 8, 2021: “The guy I dated for last 2.5 years just left me yesterday, saying he is unable to make up his mind about marriage, and wants me to meet guys as a part of arranged marriage system as approved by my parents… I have a decent job now. I have two master’s degrees… I don’t want to settle for a man through an arranged marriage. I always wanted to be swept off my feet… My parents want me to get married by next year and I feel so pressured especially when I have been ditched by the man I thought will be my life partner”.