Dear Kaya:

“What are you?“- your tiny buddha friend is whom I’d like to think of myself in regard to you.

“why he is talking nicely via email but stabbing me my back?“- lots of people are deceitful this way, it’s called being double-faced, or two faced.

“If he doesn’t want to (reconcile), why he did not say so?… why he says will call you when the time is right… what he wants from me?“-my best guess is the same as yours: “he is playing with my feeling and controlling me“. I think that he wants you to want him regardless of whether he wants you or not.

“I have to wait until he contacts me then he dump me, break my heart again? He wants to give me a huge damage?“- I am guessing that all he wants is to play with your feelings and he doesn’t care much (if at all) about damaging you.

“I’m afraid of he won’t return my vinyl. It’s possible“- you’ll have to accept the possibility that he will not return your vinyl. If I was you, I will not return any of his belongings unless he returns yours, particularly the vinyl.

“I cannot remove negative words from my heads.  I won’t hurt myself but I’m at the edge of the cliff now“- being at the edge of a cliff gives you an opportunity to throw away his two faced control games and negative words off the cliff and watch them all get smashed as they hit bottom.

anita