Dear Julia:

You are very welcome. “Without ‘some special achievement’ I feel lost in a crowd, nothing to talk about , forgettable, boring-I’m just writing down what comes to mind… Even as a child I did not understand, why people / grown-ups just had to do things which they obviously did not enjoy or rather want to do somethings else at the time“- writing down what comes to my mind as I read what I quoted here is that your parents did not enjoy taking care of you and preferred to do something else, something other than attending to you, and therefore, you felt lost in the family, forgotten and forgettable… Any of  this rings true to you?

anita