Dear anita,

excellent. You were more relaxed in the car probably because it was just the two of you (no other people around), and it was dark (no lights, like in a restaurant). For future heart-to-heart conversations, have them in the car, in relative darkness vs in a public place.

= Yes i’m planning to have more conversations in the car on my next meeting with her…. Maybe it can brought up some more deep talk between us….

it would be difficult for her to find a young man (in another city or elsewhere) who will be even close to being as considerate of her and caring for her as you are.

= really? But i’m just a young man with no experience in dating…. This is my first experience on dating, i still feel that i lack lots of things on relationship stuffs….

Till right now, i still feel anxious that she might leave our city….Because she attends her uni now in our city is due to lockdown at that time…. I keep imagining what if there’s no lockdown, what if there’s no covid?….. i wont meet her….. she’ll attend uni elsewhere….. i still cant believe it, i feel so grateful…..

And also Because my previous crush left me because she want to start a career on a different country…. Also i bet most people in our city felt bored of our city…. I try my best so that this girl wont feel bored on our city… i listed lots of cafes/restaurants for us to go…. I list it more carefully so that there wont be any more “smokers” that could make her uncomfortable…

And i also used to hate this city of mine….. but then everything changes, i love my city…. Even for its boredom…. I hope she also loves this city and wont think of leaving it…. I’d do anything to make her happy….

As you’ve followed my journey throughout the years to find a “girlfriend”… i never thought that i’d meet someone like her…. It feels like i found a gem… and tbh i cried yesterday because i feel really really grateful that i meet her….

that’s a worry- obsession I choose to ignore. I wish you can ignore it too!

= so worrying about this wont improve anything? Like maybe i can be more cautious, and look at her ex-crush standards… and aim to be above him?

I will close this reply with something I didn’t tell you for a while: I am proud of you, Eric, you are doing well!

= thank you anita, i also feel a bit proud of myself… but mostly i feel really really grateful….

I just hope that the more closer i’m with this girl, everything becomes more positive between us…. I hope i can connect well with her family, and also hoping that she’ll accept my family….