Dear Anita

Thanks for your response. It is always nice to hear from you. I think you’re mostly correct. I don’t even know I’ve mentioned the word “learning” so many times. But yes, I guess there must be a reason for that.

I guess being an overachiever is something that I has been told since I was a child by my parents and teachers as well. It is something that I am conscious of, and my friends get “jealous” as well. When I applied for jobs sometimes I got rejected as well, due to me being “overqualified”, etc. Also I can appear quite cold (I am really compassionate, I can’t change how I look! But I try to smile a little bit more, so I look more confident and once people get to know more about me, they know I’m quite nice 🙂 ). Yes I think I did not have a safe environment and I have had a lot of bad experiences, especially at school and at work, I guess, where I tried to use the same thought patterns that I had when I was a child (i.e. my family is not safe for me). But it could be that I haven’t actually found a place that is good for me regardless of what has happened to me as a child. I always a sense of danger. I’m like a merekat so I’m hyper alert all the time, this is what I have been told!