Dear Eva,

I hope that this reply finds you well,

I hear your frustration and I share it with you too. I was born and grew up at a time when the internet was already a ”thing” in communication but I identify with this longing for something real so much, and sometimes a little more than the average around me, that I’d often caught myself before thinking that I didn’t belong to this time and age. Sometimes it is just too overwhelming. I do not know how you have grown up but seeing that you have memories from before technology was a thing in communication, it makes me feel a little wishful I had those too. Then again, that would be unfair to the real connections I’ve made where I’m but in this context of losing a friend at a time where communication is at our disposal, I must say it does feel a little bittersweet right now.

I think loss, in all its forms, is one of the hardest feelings to experience. I do not know about the depth of friendship that tied you to those friends but I do know that losing them must have felt like a part of you was fading with them leaving. I think that is the hardest thing to move on from but on the brighter side, the deeper it is, the deeper your growth and the stronger you can become from it.

For what it is an update on the development of my situation, we ended up talking and it did feel like the closure of something. I do not know yet if it is the friendship that we were closing or a chapter but I do know that I want things differently for myself moving forward in this department. If anything, the talk we had was the closure that I needed to process the change.

Thank you for your empathy as always and I wish you good luck on your journey too,

with a lot of love and gentleness, 

-Luna