Dear Anita,

“Exposing weakness (the soft belly) satisfies aggressors, or potential aggressors.”

When I read it like this, I am reminded that I felt this way with both of my parents. I didn’t need to do it as much with my mom, she would nearly put me belly up so that she could rub my belly, because that made her fell something, perhaps like a good mother. My father though, was more the situation where I would expose weakness to satisfy an aggressor. With N I don’t recall doing this much, I actually held my ground very often if he would get “aggressive.” If he got verbally aggressive, like the C-word incident, I ask him to stop, and if he doesn’t I just go quiet..but I don’t think this is belly up, I felt I was holding my ground. Contrary to my dad who I would belly up or else he wouldn’t stop.

“I see life as the ocean, and each individual life (a plant, an animal, a human) as a single wave rising from the ocean (being born) and then falling back into the ocean (dies).”

I appreciate this visual.

“- you quench her cognitive/ emotional thirst, she quenches yours.”

Her and I were talking the other night, agreeing neither of us had experienced as interesting of conversation with a male partner before. We wondered if our good “thirst quenching” conversation, was only to be had between women, I doubt this, but I don’t have much evidence to say that is false.

” I think that spiders cannot think of simultaneous scenarios when it comes to emotions.”

As in they cannot experience two emotions at once? Or they cannot link scenarios and emotions..

“– I purposefully do not watch TV fiction shows nor do I read fiction stories and books because all it does to me is to create fog in my view of REAL LIFE, and my pleasure is in seeing reality as it is, not as what is fed to me by fiction writers and performers.”

What do you do instead to entertain yourself, with REAL LIFE? I suppose come to this forum! Do you ever go see plays? I enjoy plays and tv shows, not just for fiction but to see what real humans are doing, someone wrote that script, someone memorized it internally and made it real to them, enough to be something else on a stage.

“- this thread reminds you of him. IF you want to start a new thread where he is not a part of, you can.”

It is true, it does remind me of him, but it also reminds me why I should not go back. Although there are enough messages on here for me to re-read and remind myself when I need to. I wonder what my next topic should be… I feel afraid to start a forum where I don’t feel as understood as I do here. But I know that is not a good enough reason not to try something new. Other topics I am interested in are more inner (hatchling) child work, spirituality and how to stay on the track of fulfilling my purpose here.

Seaturtle