Dear Anita

I’m so happy for you managing to heal your inner child after years of suffering. It made me hopeful as well!

Back to your questions:

1. You asked me if no one in my family knew how to check on me, well no, actually they didn’t and they don’t. I know that they love me but they are very emotionally immature at times, and come from emotionally immature background themselves. My own siblings are extremely emotionally constipated and have a hard time realising their own feelings, let alone mine.

And by the way yeah, some part of me feels like I have to join others in suffering. When I tell myself “i don’t care if they are in a bad mood, I’m having fun” I’m feeling selfish. And it happens a lot. Some part of me is like afraid that my friends or family will do some extreme action in pain, like suicide, if I don’t keep track on them. It’s extreme I now.