Thank you for your reply.. You did not sound harsh at all.. My situation was a bit different to yours… He did stood by me through thick and thin.. Even when my parents were against this relationship, I did not end it right away.. Guess I got so dependent on him emotionally and mentally that I did not want to let him go.. He didn’t leave me either thinking that things might work out.. But the stress from the families got the best of us – my parents saying ‘no’ and with his parents and him taking that rejection to heart.. The thought of choosing between him and my parents was taking a toll on me.. I wanted to end my life rather than make such a decision.. And I was not fit emotionally and mentally at that time which made me go crazy even at the smallest of argument or fights.. He started losing cool too but how long would have this thing lasted.. Slowly, we started getting violent during fights and physical fights started happening.. I still blame myself and think that maybe it was my fault and because of my anger and ego that he left me…

I’m starting to look everything in a different perspective now.. He is moving on.. Good for him… I think we both had driven each other too crazy.. I keep thinking one thing only now – that at least he is happy without me.. At least he is moving on and has found a person who will probably not make him go mad like I did.. I started considering myself abnormal – that something is seriously wrong with me.. And now him being engaged and everything I think that whoever he has met won’t be as bad as me…

I always use to think and feel that I can give up everything for my parents.. they mean the world to me.. And when I think about giving up on my relationship because I did not have their blessings – I still don’t understand whether I have done right or wrong.. They had pretty valid reasons to refuse the alliance which deep down even I know could lead to major issue (different social standing of the families, different outlook towards life of both the families etc)….. I’m still picking up my pieces and hopefully this phase too shall pass….