You know ever since i was a child my family used to bug me saying i have a nose that stretches from one side of my face to the other. they said i have ugly hands. they said i was dumb. they said i have such frizzy hair a bee would get stuck and beg you to let it out. Sounds funny right? Being the youngest one in my family everyone enjoyed making fun of me. i am 20 years old now. Really insecure. on my first day in a university i was so scared because i thought i have a big nose, ugly hands, ugly feet and a brain that doesn’t function properly. So scared to compete amongst the people who were far more intelligent than me. far more beautiful and pretty. I am looking for an internship and i don’t think i can get one. Because my insecurities are overpowering me. i guess they already have. The funny thing is when i say i don’t think i can get a job/internship anywhere, they ask me why i am like that? why am i such a pessimist. these people around me. they made who i am now. and right now typing this i am crying. because i hate every single person who made me believe i was all that.