Hi Chelsea,
I second what The Ruminant said but to add…
I also went through something similar a couple of years ago. I was overworked and under a tremendous amount of stress that I made myself ill and lost so much weight that when I went home after a few months for a holiday (I work and live in the Middle East and yes, things work very different here!) my friends and family were shocked. It took me a long time to get through it but what i realise now i have is that, I am a stronger person, i appreciate and am grateful for life and I will never, ever go back to that point.
I believe you need to go through this dark phase to see life in a different light and live your life differently going forward.
A few tips i can give you… surround yourself by positive people. I realised there were a couple of people (friends) around me that emotionally drained me. You don’t need that, you need people with energy, ambition and with light in their eyes. It is OK to leave some friends behind while you travel through this part of your journey.
Focus on something else until you can move your job and life somewhere else. For me, I got into exercising – first it started with running. I set myself goals and signed up for 5k, 10k races regularly so that it kept me motivated to train. 10 months later, i ran the marathon!
I accidentally got into yoga, something i never thought I would enjoy. It’s been 8 months now and I have already been to two yoga retreats in Sri Lanka!
I started trying any activity and sport, because it was focusing my energy and attention away from something i didn’t enjoy and wasn’t happy with. Work.
I went rock climbing (indoor) and met who i believe is my soul mate. A real light bulb moment! I have never met someone who inspired me so much. Our relationship only lasted a few weeks but it was enough to set me on a journey to plan my next move out of something i was stuck in.
I tried wakeboarding, surfboard yoga, boot camps, many many different types of classes, the list is and still is endless!
It opens up so many opportunities and you meet so many likeminded people.
I am happier but i am not fulfilled. I will not be fulfilled until i can take the next step i am planning to do, hopefully in the next few months.
So for me, my advice is, focus what energy you have to achieve something new. Surround yourself with positive people. Wake up every day and repeat – today is going to be a good day. Remember, law of attraction… positivity attracts positivity 🙂
Good luck, you will make it through a much more amazing person!