Lavinia, thank you so much for your kind words – it really does help!

I think I would hang on for a very long time and put up with a lot, but he’s continually pushing me away because he knows he’s hurting me too. He’s a very messed up person with a lot of issues, and I’ve encouraged him to seek therapy too, I even suggested couple’s counselling back when I thought our relationship could be saved. I think he has a problem with alcohol and uses it as a coping mechanism/self medication. Until he addresses these issues and takes proper steps to address them (I think he’s still in denial about alcohol) there’s not much more I can do. Possibly he may do better once the pressure of the relationship has been taken away from him as he constantly says he doesn’t know what he wants or what makes him happy. I worry that the medication has helped to ease the depression but is ‘dampening’ down his thoughts and feelings as he says he can’t process any emotions right now.

I only hope he gets the help that he needs as I want him to be happy – with or without me.

Thank you again for your response, I truly appreciate it!