I have had similar problems in my life. I can’t say that I’ve entirely conquered the dilemma, but some things have helped. First, I limit and prioritize. What I mean by this is that I focus on the absolute essential values that I wish for myself. For me it’s exercise. Physical activity seems to keep the depression demons away. Other positive virtues can flow if I am in a good state of mind. Possibly focus on one or two things that will lay the foundation for further growth. Cut out other extraneous distractions that get in the way of those few priorities. For what its worth. Good luck

Mark