I don’t know how to edit this question. But i want to add that, I don’t wish to change what happened, sometimes it pains awefully too much and i wish i could change it or die, but than i get up and feel like it will work out. But in last so many months, I don’t know of a single place that I have not cried at while his thoughts ran rampant in my mind and his pictures played like movies in my heart. I miss him. I know it maybe stupid but i do. It is so hard to even think that the guy i loved so much for so long has turned into a person who doesn’t care about me anymore. He promised he will not leave me, he won’t break me, i don’t understand why he did it? Why doesnt he care anymore? It’s hard to even think about him being with other girl, doing things that we talked about etc etc (I cant even type those plans, i don;t know how.its so painful) 🙁 I feel so lost. It’s like I can’t trust any guy.
When he came back to me after the break up he told me he went to that girl because she was more beautiful and she was younger. he felt i would be old by the time we can marry ie 4 5 years later. He told me he liked her for her looks alone and otherwise not much. He told he kissed her and gropped her in places and I felt irked by it but I let it go. But he broke up with her twice to get back to me but every time he acted like an ass and then got back with his new girlfriend. It made me feel worthless as he wouldn’t even try to stay with me but he would run and go for her. I was sick and this stuff made me even more sick mentally. I felt like this is it, i don;t think i can ever be loved truly madly deeply. yes I am quite sensitive person and I do feel the need of being loved. But I am so scared now that I feel like not giving it a chance.
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