Hi Yohannes,
don’t be so hard on yourself, it is an illness when you feel this bad, and if it was someone else with a broken leg, or some other condition like diabetes you would be doing your best to help them! It is now your body’s turn to help yourself, be kind to yourself, and realise we are all out here thinking of you and hoping you will feel better very soon. Take good care of yourself and do as many kind things for you yourself as you would for your friends or girlfriend, I am sure she just wants you!!! Give yourself a big hug from all of us out here and if necessary see your doctor for some help too?
Best wishes for better days 🙂
Sarah Jane