Thank you Simon and Kirsten. My husband and I would be completely happily married if it wasn’t for his family. They are the only thing we have ever argued about. Deep down I don’t want to divorce and I definitely DON’T want to give things another go with his family. 30 years is long enough to try and be what they want. I do feel free’er knowing I no longer have to be what they want me to be, no more thinking before I speak, what i wear, what i do, where I go…. I can be myself. I still feel rejected and not good enough and that’s what I need to overcome. One thing that gives me pleasure is knowing how much they all dislike and b***h about each other, I suppose I am really lucky to be out of it, when it was “OK” it was fake anyway so what’s the point?

I am very interested in meditation, lately I have been doing some relaxation breathing exercises.
Do you have any details of guided meditations I could try? I am excited about doing this, I’m sure it will help.

Kirsten and Simon I am so grateful you took time to send such lovely and helpful replies. Thank you so much.