Michael,

I read this post a few days ago and you’ve been on my mind since. I’m so sorry for your loss and your sense of isolation. I agree with Jasmine-3, that you are still grieving and it is difficult to reach out. Sometimes our wounds are so deep that we blind ourselves from the pain yet it still exists. And now you are in a school situation where you don’t have contact with people who share your life experience. Not the ideal position to be in but it is what it is.

It’s good that you are reaching out. I think it would be good for you to be around people who can empathize with you, understand you and support you. This is how we heal, by feeling accepted, loved and understood. Perhaps a local group for folks who have lost their spouse and forums like this. It’s healthy.

You are not alone. Heal well and know that nothing is permanent.