So back at work today and once again finished feeling quite miserable. I spent most of the morning trying to stay upbeat and keep the bad thoughts from developing but once lunchtime arrived and the girls went off to smoke I began to feel very tired and worn down. The other half of the day went painfully slow and a few times I found myself standing still just staring into space. I find the whole experience is very uncomfortable, draining and depressing.

I don’t wont to go in tomorrow but know I have to. I don’t want people thinking there is something wrong with me but at the same time I feel like I may be being taken advantage of, to see how much I can take before I crack.

Will sleep in a couple of hours and then the whole cycle can begin again. I don’t know what to do but I think I may end up becoming ill.