Hi Anne,

I’m just leaving it for now. Christmas is coming up fast and I have two kids to think about first before I try to find some connection with someone again. Besides, I’m having enough trouble just paying the bills, let alone trying to date someone. My life isn’t where I thought it would be , at this point in my life. I married a total piece of crap who made sure I would be struggling as I hit mid-life.
I can’t help but feel bitter the past few weeks. I just don’t see the silver lining in anything and I hate the kind of example I feel I am for my kids.

I feel like those moments of joy I felt being with those women I dated were what I was going to get, and now it’s back to what I had before. A continuing struggle that hasn’t let up for the past four years. I never use to be this way. I saw a positive in the hardest of times, but I just don’t see it anymore. I don’t enjoy life.