Thank you. All these comments are true and wise but i am just finding it hard to implement these things or, rather, they don’t seem to be strong enough to break the thoughts and feelings. Also, the world won’t stand still while you go within and try to fix yourself. Bills keep coming in, opportunities appear and vanish. But i am so tired of these thought patterns. I seek joy, meaning, self esteem, loving relationships and creative engagement in life. But my dumb brain does these things.