I am in the same place. Right now, I’m actually fighting myself to stay at my current job just to make ends meet though everything in my being is telling me to quit. I have gone through a lot this past year; leaving a marriage, finding my soul mate, being homeless, being unemployed, getting my first apartment, countless ego deaths/revelations. I still feel lost. I want to follow my heart and trust in myself and the Universe but I still have doubt. I question my motives and am paralyzed because I don’t want to make the wrong decision. I’m literally stuck between what I’m told this reality is about and what I spiritually feel it is about. I’m tired of being judged for making decisions most would deem irrational. I too have been diagnosed with a mental disorder, bi polar, but I don’t feel crazy. I honestly feel sane in a world that is entirely off its rocker. I hate the idea that I have to conform and live a life I hate just to survive and make ends meet. Should I trust and let go? Should I give in, surrender, and let the Universe guide and lead me in the right direction? I’m so unsure.