Courtney,

This guy…. Im going to be nice as I can. But, this guy doesn’t deserve you. Im sure you’ve heard it a million times. However, I wanted to be someone to tell you AGAIN that he does not deserve you. This guy treated you horribly! Even IF you were nagging and screaming through the entire relationship I would still give you the same answer. I am sure that wasn’t quite what you were looking for in a response but that is at least where I needed to begin. I am so glad that you bravely spoke out about this. So many women(myself included) hide behind our secrets, flaws, etc…. to hide the fact that our guy or man treated us badly and some things done to me I have never spoken a word about to anyone. I have felt ashamed, embarrassed, and feared being judged myself for having chosen that type of person. You deserve a man who would listen to your concerns and take care of you or at least make sure you were taking steps to take care of yourself. Encouragement, love, understanding, etc. Those are qualities of some one who LOVES you/me. The man is out there looking for you.. He is looking so hard for you right now wishing he could be there for you to fight these battles. Know that. He would do anything to be where you are with you to support you right now. One day, he is going to find you and hug you like you have never been hugged before.

On another note… I have not been in a relationship that lasted as long as yours. I cant imagine how deeply it hurts to feel this loss. They say it takes half the time the relationship lasted to get over/through it. This means 2 + years?? I am wondering how long ago this break up happened. of course, who really knows how long it will take to move forward but I wish you the best. It is up to YOU what results come of this. Obviously, you got one big thing out of the way, A diagnosis and the reassurance that your anxiety is much more than JUST anxiety (although that can be just as crippling as anything) You should have had comfort offered to you instead of insulting words from the guy. He is an idiot! I hope you realize how awesome it is that you didn’t MARRY this guy and he didn’t leave you with small children etc. Please find the bright side of this all, look at the light in all of this. EVERYday force yourself to find a reason to be HAPPY that this ended when it did. Who knows what other things he was capable of.. If he’s heartless, he’s heartless. Thats the ugliest character flaw I can think of. I wish you all the best and I hope you know that you will find the right guy.. he’s not far away… he will show up soon, I promise.