Dieselfit,

Knowing you are a man responding to this is a very big deal for me. I have often struggled with relationships. I love men. However, I have had very few successful relationships with men. Beginning with my own Dad. I was recently sent a sweet video of a man preparing for a date it showed all of his steps of getting ready etc. He goes to knock on the door of the house where his date lives and the person who answers the door is his Daughter! He took his 3-4 year old daughter on her VERY first date. This was such a powerful message to me, I feel as though this should have been me and my dad.. I WISH my Dad had taken me out on a date as a child!!! I wish he had an intention to make me feel the way a REAL MAN should make a girl feel. Unfortunately, I and many other girls didn’t get to experience that type of thing. I have forgiven so much thats happened in life, moved on, etc. The thing that is still engraved in my head is the way my Dad treated me, as if my feelings didnt ever matter, and whatever the man asks for-you better hop to it, and keep your mouth SHUT. Maybe somehow thats the same way I have chosen guys for myself. And, now… Am I fighting back?!?! Is this progress..? Hmm.. Now I have more to think about. Thank you for your message. I dont thank you for JUST this message but for the questions that it brought to mind for me. Thank you (: