Hi Clem
Im going through the exact same thing.
Im 24 my bf is 37 and his mother just passed away from cancer a few months ago. He left his job to help her in her last stages. Im very proud of him but ever since the beginning ive never felt very commmitted to him and now ive been with him for just over a year. He gets angry alot and says horrible things every now and then and i just cant figure him out. My dad also has cancer so i know what hes going through but for the past 6 months ive been trying to decide about my feelings whether to hang in there or move on. I dont feel in love with him but i know hes in love with me. Im a very outgoing social person who loves to live life to the fullest and i live to travel. He likes to stay home and watch movies all day everyday. Feel like im getting manipulated out of my own life. I understand it can be so complicated! you love him but you dont love him… im in the process of wanting to move on but im still not strong enough to do it and im not sure why. Im happier when i hang out with my friends and hes not there..
I think you need to find where your happy and do things that make you happy and if that means you have to leave him behind then so be it so just relax do your own thing for a bit and hopefully things will fall into place as they should.
🙂