@Kath:

Thank you 🙂

This self-reflection took 5 months to process. It wasn’t an easy path. The first few months were the toughest because I had to break all contact with him and that was the hardest thing I ever had to do. He wanted to still be friends but I knew that was not a good idea. Maybe in the future but it wasn’t a good idea at the time because I knew we would just keep going in circles. But like people say, time heals itself. I didn’t think I would ever come this far though. I thought it would take me years to get over him. I think it was more important for me to reflect on my mistakes and taking responsibility in why the relationship didn’t work, rather than blaming him for breaking up with me. I was so angry at him initially but I think I have finally found that inner peace and I forgive him because I forgave myself. I know I am not perfect and all I can do is learn and move on and hope that I find someone one day that will make me say “F**K YES” (great article posted by Yue: http://markmanson.net/fuck-yes)

Like you said, I will trust my gut. If it is saying confusion then I am pretty sure its not worth exploring. I am learning something new everyday! Thanks for reading my post. Feels good to get unbiased perspectives from users of this forum. I am so grateful to be part of it!