bpkhss,

I am sorry for your suffering.

Your desire for a soulful relationship is understandable. No other sensation may duplicate what it feels like to share and feel our entire beings in another. I hope you eventually find all that you seek.

As for your situation, have you ever thought of joining an online dating site? I have heard of numerous wonderful stories culminate from people who have chased this endeavor. Is this something you think is for you?

I’m sorry my words are so few but I hope it helps.

Al