Hi Chaycups,

First of all, congratulations for helping yourself and being in a program that is helping you with your addiction. That’s amazing, you must be really proud of yourself. Everyone is not brave enough and have the capacities and possibility to do that.

I know what being emotionally overwhelmed feels like. It’s terrible. It’s confusing, it distorts your judgment and prevents you to move forward. Even if your life “reads well on paper”, it’s clear to me that it’s not the life you wish you were reading on paper. Add to that the office drama/romantico-family issues/expenses… you sure have a lot to worry about and not feeling worthy on top of that?? This is not bringing any positivity in your life…

Of course I’m not minimizing your preoccupations, I’m not saying it’s an easy thing to clear your mind, forget your problems, put a huge smile on your face and act as if everything was fine, but it’s definately not helping you thinking clearly right now. If you carry on this path, you’ll end up in the vicious circle of sadness & co, that you’re dangerously flirting with already.

But moving to that other place? Sounds great to me, why not trying that? The grass isn’t greener on the other side but if you have this option in the back of your mind, I really think you should go for it and I think you know it too. Maybe there you’ll get a job that’ll help you cover your expenses better and allow you to treat yourself, which would be a weight off and one less thing to worry about. Changing your environement will bring you a better perspective on your life. Leaving the place you’re at right now can only benefit you, no matter what you’ll find there.

I am myself at a turning point in my life, trying to figure out where to go, and looking at it as if I was already gone helps me feel better about my current situation which isn’t verry pleasant either. I can already say that leaving is the right choice. Leaving probably is the right choice for you too.

Think about the things you achieved, you are worthy! You are valuable and you matter just like we all do, and we all deserve to live a life as good as possible so why not you?

Take care and go for it!

Lost Girl.