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Yes, because my mother is one of the most supportive, and loving people in my family. My grandma is another, but I bond so well with my mom compared to with my father. My mother and I relate so much and we are there for each other, we’re best friends. I lived with my father until I was 18, but my father doesn’t even know me as well as my mother does (or at all, he doesn’t know who his own daughter is.) That’s why I believe a mother’s love is the greatest. I love my father dearly, but the way he acts towards me when I do something “wrong” in his eyes he judges me for it and is really rude to me. It makes me feel lower than low and its frustrating. He told me a long time ago that he doesn’t even know who I am. We talk once in a great while, but we aren’t all that close. He I guess you could say isn’t very understanding. He spent more time with my brother than me when I was growing up. Is he a bad father? No way, he just doesn’t understand where I’m coming from when I do something he doesn’t like or agree with. My mom isn’t perfect either. Heck NO ONE is perfect. We are all imperfectly flawed. But we are human. I love my dad and I want to be closer to him. Deep down it hurts that we aren’t close, and it really sucks. I lived with him since I was a baby up until I was 18. You’d think you would be close to your parent if you lived with them almost all your life, right? Sadly that’s not the story with me. I want to change that so badly. I don’t know for sure but I was little and a childhood friend’s father woke me up when I fell asleep and told me to go into the room down the hall. I don’t remember the friend or their father’s name. But I was little and didn’t know what was going on. He walked in the room and was really drunk and poured beer on my head, and I was crying. And that’s all I can remember. So I don’t know for sure, but this could be the man who hurt me that caused me to be so afraid of people when I was little, and for so long. Ok thanks for letting me know, and I will be away for a while too. But please reply when you can and I will get back to you when I can. Thanks.