Hi Perry – Im so sorry for how your feeling. I know how rejection hurts. Im sure you have beautiful aspects of yourself, don’t be so hard on yourself. I am sometimes pessimist too and that’s just because I prepare for the worse for fear of being let down. I would like to get out of the that mind set but that’s just me. I know I need to work on it. Sometimes the people we love and want the most leave but its a blessing in disguise. Its hard to realize when your in it. I believe that every relationship we have in life is a lesson whether the outcome is good or bad, we can learn from it if. Ha look at me telling you all the things that I should be telling myself. I just posted a topic myself because my boyfriend is rejecting me right now. Its oh so easy to give advice from the outside : ) Your not alone. Have comfort in that tonight. Things will work themselves out. They always do. Have you two remained in contact at all?