Anita, No I haven’t called and told her yet, but my mom knows and she told me I should tell her because she would never mean to hurt me. But yes I am afraid that she will reject me for who I am and I know she will love me always, but I am afraid she might not talk to me. I will only find out when I do tell her though. She knew about the first girl I dated and said the same sort of thing, but unless my mother told her I am gay, I don’t think she knows. I am going to call her today and let her know. A friend of mine told me to tell her in person so she can see that I am serious about it. I cant though, because I live in a different state than her and I cant drive down and see her anytime soon. So calling her is the best thing I can do at the moment. From what she says and believes she is very afraid of me going to hell, and she knows that I went to church all the time and then I quit and that’s why she is disappointed. I don’t read the Bible like the Christian person should. So to her I think she believes that I am not a Christian. Although I am not too sure what she thinks exactly. Yes she knows that anyone who doesn’t believe in him will go to hell, and I think she might think that I don’t believe in him anymore. But I stand strong in my faith with him. I believe that he loves everyone. If he dislikes gays so much why does he make people born that way?? I don’t think he would create someone that way if he doesn’t like them. And no I am not trying to change her. I just want her to understand. If I didn’t make sense on some of this, please let me know so I can clarify. Thanks.

Elletinker, Thanks for replying. Everything that you said I agree with and it is what I have been doing all my life. I have suffered with depression ever since I was growing up and now and then I still do. I am starting now to stop hiding things. It will take time, but each and everyday I became happier than the day before. Thanks so much for your support. And I have found the girl that I want to spend the rest of my life with and I do want to marry her someday ^-^