I’m not quite sure, I guess whenever I went to hang out with friends I would always be really anxious of if they were having fun and if I was being good enough for them. However I never had many friends at all so I’m not sure if that would really be it. I never really had attachment relationships in my life too much. I have gotten over most of the feelings of im not good enough etc. which is why I am wondering what is going on. I get nervous before he comes to see me which is odd because I have been with him for two years. I guess I just really don’t want to lose control of the situation, I am in fear of what could happen. I still don’t know how I can channel that feeling into something positive though.

-Leanne